Thank you to everyone who has been concerned about not seeing me around much lately! I really appreciate being missed. My mom came up for a few weeks, and I didn't get much computer time.
I've been struggling with whether or not to share where I'm at right now. After an email from Lynn, and much deliberation, I've decided to spill everything and see what happens. Please bear with me. This is probably going to be long.
When Tank left on this deployment, we had a plan in place to have our debt paid off by the time that he got home. We were doing really well until I found a $2,000 debt that I thought had already been taken care of, but was still outstanding. Still, I managed to keep things on track until I hurt my knee and decided that I needed to leave my job to prevent more serious knee problems. That was roughly in September. Since then, I've had to have some major oral surgery done, an alternator replaced in the truck, and things have been generally just falling apart financially.
As things sit right now, I haven't paid rent to my in-laws in two months, and if I want to get K-1 and my furnace fixed, I probably won't be paying rent this month either. The truck is due for inspection this month, and I need to figure out a way to get the windshield replaced and it will probably need some wiring work too before it will pass. I think I might be able to get the glass for it at a salvage yard in exchange for two junk cars that we can get rid of, but I haven't had a chance to get that arranged, and I still have to have it installed.
I found out last night that my Great Aunt who is like a Grandmother to me is in ICU in Ohio and not doing very well. She has been dealing with kidney failure for a few months now, and since Saturday has had at least 3 heart attacks that I know of. With everything else that is going on, I am hoping that there isn't a funeral because I don't see how I would be able to go.
Things are still up in the air as to when Tank is coming home. Tomorrow (the 16th) is my 26th birthday, and Thursday is our 4 year anniversary.
Needless to say, I'm an emotional wreck right now, and have been avoiding people rather than reaching out for friendship and support. I am thankful for what I have. I know that everything is going to work out. In some ways I really hope that Tank is able to stay in Iraq for a 3rd tour like he wants to so that we can finally have a savings account by the time he comes home. In other ways, I'm getting tired and would really love to have some help at home.
Please just keep me in your thoughts and prayers over the next few weeks as I try to find my way through this rocky road.
Thanks for listening.
I've been struggling with whether or not to share where I'm at right now. After an email from Lynn, and much deliberation, I've decided to spill everything and see what happens. Please bear with me. This is probably going to be long.
When Tank left on this deployment, we had a plan in place to have our debt paid off by the time that he got home. We were doing really well until I found a $2,000 debt that I thought had already been taken care of, but was still outstanding. Still, I managed to keep things on track until I hurt my knee and decided that I needed to leave my job to prevent more serious knee problems. That was roughly in September. Since then, I've had to have some major oral surgery done, an alternator replaced in the truck, and things have been generally just falling apart financially.
As things sit right now, I haven't paid rent to my in-laws in two months, and if I want to get K-1 and my furnace fixed, I probably won't be paying rent this month either. The truck is due for inspection this month, and I need to figure out a way to get the windshield replaced and it will probably need some wiring work too before it will pass. I think I might be able to get the glass for it at a salvage yard in exchange for two junk cars that we can get rid of, but I haven't had a chance to get that arranged, and I still have to have it installed.
I found out last night that my Great Aunt who is like a Grandmother to me is in ICU in Ohio and not doing very well. She has been dealing with kidney failure for a few months now, and since Saturday has had at least 3 heart attacks that I know of. With everything else that is going on, I am hoping that there isn't a funeral because I don't see how I would be able to go.
Things are still up in the air as to when Tank is coming home. Tomorrow (the 16th) is my 26th birthday, and Thursday is our 4 year anniversary.
Needless to say, I'm an emotional wreck right now, and have been avoiding people rather than reaching out for friendship and support. I am thankful for what I have. I know that everything is going to work out. In some ways I really hope that Tank is able to stay in Iraq for a 3rd tour like he wants to so that we can finally have a savings account by the time he comes home. In other ways, I'm getting tired and would really love to have some help at home.
Please just keep me in your thoughts and prayers over the next few weeks as I try to find my way through this rocky road.
Thanks for listening.
